Bad Day

Venting time...


Woke up, went to two classes of gymnastics at USU... and did the worst I've ever done.

pathetic.  

The worst kind of disappointment: disappointment in myself.

Then,  the hot guy... the type that I don't even give my time of day to because I assume he's a tool and would have no reason to associate with me...

asks me out.

Guess. What. He didn't have his cell phone, so I was going to get his number and then text him.

So I did....

And either I entered the wrong number, or he gave me the wrong number, because someone else replied.

Suck.

Then, I go to  a class with some friends.  At first, I'm so happy to be there because of the guys I'm with.

Then more people show up

And it's not till the end of class that I exist again.

Invisibility - apparently a power I possess.

To add to it, I'm not the student, friend, sister, roommate, or person I should be.  And tonight, that was all  made 

clear.

Once again, the worst kind of disappointment?

Disappointment in myself.

PITY PARTY OVER... time to look at positives of today

At gymnastics, I got a good workout and made friends.  I laughed a lot, too (mostly to hide how retarded I felt, but laughing = laughing no matter what it's for).

Hot guy gave me time of day.  And just NOW, we contacted each other through FB.

Invisibility... kind of a cool power!

I can change into that student, friend, sister, roommate, or person I should be.

That is all.

A Girl Can Dream

It was the beginning of my sophomore year at USU when I realized that I was possibly the only girl who had not dreamed about her future wedding.  I seemed to be the only girl who didn't have her future wedding even planned out - all of the colors, the wedding dress, the ring, and the song that the first dance would be to.  Therefore, I began to try to dream about my own wedding and tried to plan it out like all of the others, but I naturally failed.  The most I got was that I want one of my colors to be aqua.  Woop-dee-do, one small detail.

However, I think I've come to terms with the fact that, as my twin brother would put it, I'm just not like the other girls - I don't always have to have a boyfriend, I'm not tied up in getting a date every weekend, I don't know what I want my future home to look like, and I don't have every detail of my future wedding planned out.  In fact, I don't care about the wedding colors, I don't care if tons of people show up to the reception, I don't care about the cake (although it would be nice if it were chocolate), I don't care about the dress, or even the ring.  In reality, there are only two things I care about and have dreamed about my whole life... the guy, and getting married in the Temple.

I admit it, I have been raised on Disney movies and Fairy-tales.  And while I do believe in fairy-tales and true love, I am very aware of the fact that Prince Charming is not going to come sweep me off my feet onto a white horse.  And let's be honest, who wants to walk around in uncomfortable glass slippers that could come to a shatter with any slip and fall (which I would be highly likely to do).

I guess what I'm trying to say is that my definition of fairy-tales is a little different than Hollywood's.  


I dream of a prince charming who will love me for me.  He'll love me for my weaknesses and my strengths.  I dream of a prince charming who will think that all of the embarrassing and dorky things I do are cute (perhaps that one does come from the movies).  He's someone who will call me out when I'm out of line or am in the wrong.    He's a prince charming who will make me want to be a better person.  

Not only do I dream about him and the kind of person he'll be, but I dream about our happily ever after. Our relationship that we will have for all time and eternity.  I truly believe that happily ever after's are not only meant for the movies and the storybooks.  Why and how?  The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saint Temple.  This is the beautiful place where I can be married to my prince charming for forever.  And as we draw closer to God and to each other through the fiery furnaces and the bright sunny days of life, our happiness will only increase.  The best part is that it'll last through eternity and I'll truly understand how it feels to live happily ever after.  If I must be so bold as to say, I can't imagine anything better than being someone else's princess in the Kingdom of God.  I dream of it endlessly.





I do want to point out that I know that marriage is not a picnic in the park and that my "prince charming" will not be perfect.  But as long as we are both working to draw closer to each other and to God, then I know it will work out, and the ending result will be all that I dreamed, and more.  And I do not expect my prince charming to be perfect. I, myself, am so far from perfect, so why would I expect it from him?  However, prince charming never meant perfection.  To me, a prince charming means someone who continuously makes me want to be a better person.  And to be his princess, I must do the same.


Well, this would be a good time to get my head out of the clouds because I have things to do here and now... but still, a girl can dream, can't she?

This song's for anyone who's having the worst day...

I'm going to be blunt.  Today was not a good day.  Actually, these last two days haven't been good days.  Things didn't go my way.  So, tonight, I did what I sometimes do to get myself to smile - watch Allstar Weekend videos.  Basically, this is a band that started out in a garage and is getting bigger and bigger.  The only problem (in my opinion) is that they started out being advertised through Disney because they won a music contest.  However, their music is not directed to the Disney age group anymore, so they aren't becoming as well known.  Hopefully this is changing as we speak because in my opinion, everyone should know them.  I've seen them in concert and for a band, they have the most energy and performance abilities than any other bands I have seen.  It was actually at this concert that I fell even more in love with them.

So why do I watch their videos to get myself to smile or laugh?  Well, they are just so light-hearted in all that they do.  Their music videos are just the "feel good" and dance kind, and their dorky home-made videos are just that: dorky!  And for those of you who have seen Sydney White, I, Callie Stats, AM A DORK. Therefore, their random videos are perfect for me.

The End.

Actually, no, I just changed my mind.  I'm not done.

Um... jk, I am done.

Wow. see what my problem is?

I'm thinkin' I should watch the video above over and over because I think that I, Callie Stats, deserve to party like it's not my birthday.  Who says you need a birthday to celebrate, anyways?

Ok, finally, time to jam.

Goodbye.

From moping around to Living the Dream

Have you ever had that feeling where you have no time to blog but have such a desire to do so? And then you finally get the opportunity and time and you don't know what to say (or type, I should say)? Yeah. That would be me. Now.


Regardless, it still feels good to get something down. Therefore, I'll just ramble.


First off, I have had a negative attitude all week and have been antisocial, which is not a "Callie" thing to do.  I've just wanted to be by myself and mope.  Why?  Not sure... I'm probably just looking for attention like a little priss or something.  So, to fix this moping and attitude problem, I've decided to list some things that I love right now, in this moment (this is me trying to live in the moment and not the past or the future).


I LOVE.....


           *Visiting home knowing I'll be taken care of by my mommy and daddy (yeah, I just said that).  Sometimes it's just nice to have people who show you they love you through action and not just words.

          *Exercise. Particularly at Sports Academy where I have a free membership because of my job (no, not at USU where little miss beauty queen with her straightened highlights and eyelash extensions is trying to get some).  Exercising at Sports Academy is where and when I can enter my own world and disappear behind the instructor (who is just happy you're there) and listen to the beat of the music running through the whole room.  I love that atmosphere in the classes where people are competing against themselves and not each other, aka no judgments.  I can just focus on improving myself without worries - homework disappears, work disappears, responsibilities disappear, and all troubles of life disappear. And all that's left is me, in my own little world.


.       *Walking home from school knowing that I don't have to be there for the rest of the day.  And those 7 minutes allow me to say hi to the friends I pass and to think to myself.  There's just one destination: home.  No options, no decisions, no pressure.  It also means that it's almost time for me to have around 10 minutes of free, lazy time as soon as I do get home. And those are minutes I often look forward to, especially on the days when I'm running from one thing to the next.


        *My true friends of whom I can rely on to be true friends at all times.  One of my dear friends once told me that there are good friends, best friends, and true friends.  Good, better, best.  And it's taken me a long time, but I finally know what she means, probably because I finally know what true friends are.  I do have many true friends, but I do want to make a cheesy shout out to Makenna B., Kylie W., and Jared H.  You are each amazing.  I love how it doesn't matter how long it's been, because each time we see each other, it's as though nothing has changed.  And between us, nothing has.  In the past, I've had friends who care about pleasing others more than being genuine, sincere, and truthful.  It's all just words.  But with true friends, it's more than words.  It's heart.  So to those who are true friends to me, thanks.  I aspire to be as good to you as you are to me.


      *Dance parties where I can let go and feel the music run through every molecule in my body.  This includes dance parties where there are 100's of people, or where there is only me in my room with my little stereo.

    *Crafts that make me feel way cooler than I am.  Particularly crafts with paint.

    *Talking with my roommate (currently Ashlena N.) until we fall asleep.  It's nice to have someone there at the end of the day.  Particularly a reliable, amazing, true friend like Ms. Nichols (P.S. Ashlena, please be an exception from statistics that past roommates have created and refrain from getting married, or even getting a boyfriend and forgetting about me, thanks.)


    *Sitting in the sauna after a beautiful workout.  Need a stress reliever? Go find a sauna.  Mine happens to be at Sports Academy where members often forget it exists, so I often get it to myself.  Time to myself? Nope, doesn't exist unless I'm in the sauna.


     *Having friends in so many different countries.  Let's be honest, sometimes it's nice to have bragging rights to something that most people don't have.  Yup, I'm a selfish gloater like that.  And I actually do love these friends I have and I do and will miss them dearly as they leave America within these next 2 weeks.  I can't think of the fact that they're leaving and that most aren't coming back. I don't like that at all.  I have never been so horrible at saying goodbyes.  But then again, the fact that they're leaving is not the point.  The point is that I got to know them, and I love them, and they are amazing, and they are so nice, and.... I can't wait to see them again whether it's in this life or the next.

My last night in Sun Valley with the best of my friends! I'm the only American!

       * Musicals.  Particularly ones that make your heart burst with feeling like Wicked or the Phantom of the Opera.  And fun ones that make you smile like High School Musical 3 and Hairspray (or I guess these could be classified as Zac Efron musicals).



        * My ipod.  It's my baby.  It makes everything better.  It's old.  It's white.  It's magical.



      *Disney.  What can I say?  Disney always makes me laugh, it's always wholesome, and I love that in their movies and shows they put jokes that only adults can understand.



       *Deep talks while looking up into the stars.



      *Movies and books.  I love escaping this world and immersing myself in new ones.



     *Sleep.  Need I say more?
I look like this when I sleep : D


    *Love. Yup, I love love.  Especially true love, which I will never stop believing in.  I know with everything in me that I will experience true love some day in the same way I knew that I was meant to do something bigger than myself this last summer.  It's just one of those things.



     *ADVENTURES!!!!


                                                                    Meeting David Archuleta

Moab with one of my truest friends in the world!

EFY: one of the BEST of my adventures. Indescribable

       Harry Potter 7.2 midnight showing with my Chinese friends and Kyle

 Babysitting for Angela, a supermodel, on set! (with makeup artist on left)

 Freezing Friday: Jumping into small Sun Valley Lake (it was freezing, obviously)

 Lazer tag at them park with Balint (Hungary) and Paulina (Slovakia)

 Just a few of around 15 or 16 foreigners I brought to FHE with me :) and (gasp) we had a blast and there wasn't even alcohol! Their first bonfire with alcohol replaced by s'mores!

 May or may not have snuck into a bar (me, in a bar... hard to imagine right?).   For those of you who worry, it's ok, I was only there to dance! I had no swallow of any form of liquid!

 Going KAYAKING through RAPIDS! (Balint is there, he just isn't in this pic.) And imagine this, our guide's name was Ian, from Centerville, and has a twin.  Yeah, I know. It's a small world.  (I have a twin named Ian if you didn't get that)

 Lagoon with Kylie White!

Selena Gomez and Allstar Weekend concert with my oldest niece (the one old enough to go). SO GOOD! And i'm not just saying that for all you who are suspicious!

Ok, well, I now feel like a hundred times better.  Especially knowing that my adventures and experiences haven't been limited to this blog.  How to heal a moping soul?  List the happy things you love in life.  Because now, I remember the fact that I am the most blessed girl ever.  

I'm living the dream.

P.S. I would love to know what you think about this blog, things that relate to this blog, your life, or anything. I just want to know what is in that brain of yours.  Therefore, please leave a comment!

P.S.2. Sorry for any misspellings or wrong English ways of doing any thing because I just wrote without editing. That is all..